always need the first leap

I suddenly remembered my last conversation with my friend.
She said that she still in love with someone that she doesnt even know wheter he know her that she love him
She even never talk to him directly, but she gave almost all her heart to him unconditionally that she could cry for no reason only to know that she still have those feelings.
She's not the only one.

Then the other day, i talked to one of my friend and she said almost exactly the same thing.
That she in love with someone that she doesnt even know wheter he know her that she love him.
But this one's better.
She already knew that the guy remembered her name even she never looked at him directly and talked to him normally.
She's not alone.

I knew this girl, she's been hiding his feeling to this guy since almost 4 years ago.
She never try to talk to him or even getting to know him.
She always looked at him changing his girlfriend one by one.
She never try.


I believe every each or one of you ever shared the same feeling.
Me as well.

We, women, prefer to stand and watch than make a first move.
For eastern people like us, of course that's not an easy thing to move and told him your feelings.
Thats why we always felt like we're imprisoned by our own feelings by thinking wheter he likes us or not.
Thats turtoring.

Then i remembered, one of my friend, a simple country girl, she said to me when i met her one year ago.
"you can always tell him your feelings, not to make him yours. just so he know that somebody loved him."
Tell him, not always in order to make him yours.
Tell him, and you'll be free for at least one burden.
Tell him, and you've got nothing to lose.
Tell him, and you can move on with smile.

I know exactly, that its hard to do.
but if you couldnt make the first move. you can always make the first LEAP or you'll never get there. -K